To the love of my life

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Cant afford to lose you

All i can think of now is that i dont want to lose you. I cant lose you. And I really want to prove to you that things shouldnt end this way. I have learnt from my mistakes and when one learns from his mistakes, they will not dare to repeat it again because of the conseqeunces that will occur. I know that i have hurt you many times, but i want to overwrite the hurt with all my love and care for you. I know i have said this before, but i want you to know that i will try my utmost best never to ever hurt you again. Because i do not want to see you crying or hurting. I really do not. My love for you cannot be expressed in words, because my love for you is forever strong and never dying. I hope you feel the same way because i dont want this to end like this. I really do not. I want to be the one that looks after you when you are sick, shield you from any harm, protect you from any danger. I want to be the one that can look after you for the rest of your life.
Please give me a chance to. I promise i will become better. For you and for myself.

From your babyboy

My Promise

These are my promises to you Angela Tan Ying Xin.
I promise never to shout at you no matter what circumstances there are.
I promise to never treat you like how i treated you on sunday because i know that was wrong.
I promise to always be there for you whenever you need me and i will never turn my back on you.
I promise to be a man with more opinions and more say, so that you will not think that i am just giving in to you all the time.
I promise that i will take initiative and make more decisions instead of just going the way you want to go.
I promise to love you with all my heart and soul.
I promise to never allow you to cry yourself to sleep because i never want to see you upset ever.
I promise that things will get better and that we will live happily ever after.
I promise to show you that i am the one for you.
I promise that even if we are not suitable for each other, we will become suitable for each other.
I promise all this because i want you back in my life.
I will not just say all these things and not do so. I will definitely show you and prove to you that i mean what i said. Every single part of it. Please give me this chance to prove what i have said.

From your babyboy

Things i shouldnt have said

I shouldnt have said you treat me like a dog, because it isnt true. The fact is that i give in to you because i like to, and not because i do not have a choice to. I loved how you treated me all the time, even if it was when you were angry or upset because i know you did so because you loved me. I always felt loved when i was with you, no matter when or where i always felt that way. I loved you with all my heart and i do not want to stop loving you now. I assure you that in this past 11 months, never have i felt unsatisfied with the way you treated me or with the way you talked to me. Because thats just how you are and i know that. I have grown onto you and i cannot imagine myself without you now. I really do not want things to end this way. I really hope that you do too. Please trust me when i say i can become better. Because this is what i desire. You are what i want and i will fight for you no matter what it takes.

From your babyboy

Big Mistake

I know it was a mistake for me to shout and explode to you. And i am sincerely sorry for what i did. I can assure you that this will not happen again because i do not want you to feel like how you felt when you were with your ex. I know he always did those things to you and you have a phobia of it. But i know that it will not happen again. Never will i do such a thing to you again. I promise you that this will never happen again and i want to prove it to you. Let me show you in action that i will never do such a thing again instead of just telling you because i know you will not believe me if i just say i promise not to. Let time show you that i am willing to change and become a better man for you. I know the things i said to you hurt you, but i promise you that i did not mean a single bit of it at all. I shouldnt have said those hurtful words. And for the past 11 months, no matter what we went through i never felt that way before. Honestly i dont know why i said those things, but i really did not feel that way at all. Please let me show you the right way in our relationship, one that is without quarrels or hurt. I can do this i know that because i do not want to lose you. I am willing to be a different man for you, one that takes initiative and one that has his own decisions. Because i know from previously that you do not like it when i just agree with you and let you have what you want. Yes i always gave in to you but now i know that it isnt the right way. You want me to decide things and do things without you asking me to do so, and i promise you that i will be able to do so. I know you might still be angry at me because of what i did, but deep down inside you know i want to make things right. I promise you Angela Tan Yin Xin, that I, Ivan Teo Kui Ming, will strive to be a better boyfriend. I promise that i will never do anything that will harm or hurt you in any way and I promise that I will be that ideal guy that you want. Please give love another chance. Cause i want you to always be my babygirl.

From your babyboy

Happy times

Remember our first month anniversary? We were so happy then and nothing seemed to trouble us at all. Yes things got bad after that but we pulled through and i believe things were even better than before. We quarrelled less and argued less. We were always together and i know we were both happy to have each other's company. We had my birthday celebration and you made me a card. I was so touched by that card and happy with the presents that you gave to me. I still remember them until now. Remember during your birthday, when your friends came to surprise you and we had a small session of mahjong at your place before going to USS the next day? That day was another special memory because it was both our first times going. Remember in the morning when qiaolin peining and regine came to surprise you before we went to USS? That was really nice wasnt it. Things went really well recently too, after our 11 month anniversary. But sunday was a total disaster when it happened. I know i really shouldnt have done all those things, and it made you feel really upset and like the past. I admit it was my mistake and i really shouldnt have done that, knowing how you worked and how to handle you. I really wish i could go back in time and not let that happen. So that i wouldnt be losing you right now and regretting this moment for the rest of my life. I really want to fix things and make things right. Would you let me do so? You are the love of my live and i wouldnt want to lose you now. Things have been so great for us and i cannot imagine myself without you. I really cant.

From your babyboy

11 months

Remember the first time we met? Near elias mall where we had a bottle of Gin, sprite and some lime juice? It was simple and sweet. The very first time that we had met. You got abit tipsy and i helped you flagged a cab home. That was the first time we had met. Remember how we would meet more often after the first time to just spend time with each other? And how i finally got you to be my girlfriend? It was really amazing for me. I remember all the happy things we've been through and all the ups and downs that we had, but i still loved you all the same because i know that in a relationship, there is bound to be quarrels and hardships but we as a couple would help each other through it. Yes i have hurt you many times over and i know that you have given me many chances but after 11months, my love for you has become so much that no matter what i will still want to hold on to you. You are the one for me and i know it. We may not be suitable yes, but these things can be worked out. It was my mistake for shouting and exploding that day. I know that and I only did it because i was frustrated. Not at you but at the entire arguement. All i could think of after i left your place was why did i have to open my mouth and say those things? Would things have been different if i had kept my mouth shut? I really wonder to myself now. I know that you wont want to forgive me and you just want all this to go away. You want to stop all the hurt from happening but i want you to know that even though i always make you upset, I always blame myself after it happens. And i always try even harder to not let it happen again. Maybe you had enough and you just want everything to stop now. But i just cant let go of this relationship. Not now not ever because you are the one i love and i want to grow old with you. I know you dont want to talk to me now or maybe even forever. But i just want you to know that we can be better. Time will help us nurture our relationship and prevent all those quarrels and arguements again. I know that you may not believe it can happen but i believe it can. I really wish that things are not like that now and that i was happily by your side. I made the mistake of shouting and forcing you, but i have learnt from my mistakes and i swear that this is one thing i will never ever do again. Because i know that i hurt you and i cannot bear to see you get hurt. I really hope that things will change between us and not just end right here because i really dont want that to happen. I love you and i always will.

From your babyboy