I LOVE YOU BABYGIRL

To my one and only babygirl.

This is my last day of the year post for you. I hope you will read it and know how sincere i am my love.

I know you're angry because i lied to you. It was my fault for being so stupid. Attempting to even lie to you when you always see through my lies. I am really sorry that this had to happen on the last day of 2012. I shouldnt have made you angry. And i should have just told you the truth. Im so sorry babygirl.

Remember the last time we had a really huge fight? Its been more than a year ago since that. We have grown past that and things has been kind of smooth sailing ever since. Yes we may have had our ups and downs. Me being me always making you angry doing the things i do. I really hate myself for always making you angry. And i want to stop all this so we can always be happy. I really dont want to lose you ever. You always make me feel happy and I always want to be with you. Its been more than 2 years since we got together. A really long time and i've always felt really lucky to have found someone like you.

Tomorrow is the start of a new year 2013. And i want us to start afresh too. So here is my new year resolution to you.

1. Never lie to you whenever im not in school
2. Always love you and cherish you no matter what
3. Start being more outgoing and making more decisions
4. Stop being lazy
5. Not to always ask you to make decisions
6. Pass my bike license for you(I'll try my very best)
7. Be a better boyfriend for the year 2013 and of course the many years to come!
8. Always be the one there for you
9. Never ever make you angry or sad
10. Always make you smile 
11. Love you more than i already do
12. Do sweet little things to make you happy
13. Never give you a chance to get angry

My 13 resolutions for the year 2013. I would do 2013 resolutions but that will be highly impossible! 

I really wanted to spend new year's eve with you so that we could count down into the new year together. But i just had to make you angry and destroy that chance. I guess i just have to make it up to you by writing this post and hoping that you will forgive me once you are done reading it. 

One of my many favorite pictures of you and me. I LOVE YOU BABYGIRL!

Dont think i'll have a chance to meet you today. So here is a bouquet of flowers from me to you!

I'm so sorry I made you angry baby. I hope you will forgive me and can give me another chance to make things right.

I want us to be like this picture. Me always protecting you from everything even when we grow old. I'll be bald and wrinkly while you stay forever chio! 

This is the one thing that i've done for you that i have never actually given you until this day. The collage i made for you.

I guess i can make use of it now to try and get you to forgive me. I really hope we can spend our new year together babygirl. Even if I dont get to meet you. I really hope we can spend the rest of our lives together too. Starting the new year together.

我愛你 babygirl. Forever and always.

我要你永远做我的宝贝！
可以吗？


From your babyboy

To the love of my life

Kizoa slideshow: Love - Slideshow

Cant afford to lose you

All i can think of now is that i dont want to lose you. I cant lose you. And I really want to prove to you that things shouldnt end this way. I have learnt from my mistakes and when one learns from his mistakes, they will not dare to repeat it again because of the conseqeunces that will occur. I know that i have hurt you many times, but i want to overwrite the hurt with all my love and care for you. I know i have said this before, but i want you to know that i will try my utmost best never to ever hurt you again. Because i do not want to see you crying or hurting. I really do not. My love for you cannot be expressed in words, because my love for you is forever strong and never dying. I hope you feel the same way because i dont want this to end like this. I really do not. I want to be the one that looks after you when you are sick, shield you from any harm, protect you from any danger. I want to be the one that can look after you for the rest of your life.
Please give me a chance to. I promise i will become better. For you and for myself.

From your babyboy

My Promise

These are my promises to you Angela Tan Ying Xin.
I promise never to shout at you no matter what circumstances there are.
I promise to never treat you like how i treated you on sunday because i know that was wrong.
I promise to always be there for you whenever you need me and i will never turn my back on you.
I promise to be a man with more opinions and more say, so that you will not think that i am just giving in to you all the time.
I promise that i will take initiative and make more decisions instead of just going the way you want to go.
I promise to love you with all my heart and soul.
I promise to never allow you to cry yourself to sleep because i never want to see you upset ever.
I promise that things will get better and that we will live happily ever after.
I promise to show you that i am the one for you.
I promise that even if we are not suitable for each other, we will become suitable for each other.
I promise all this because i want you back in my life.
I will not just say all these things and not do so. I will definitely show you and prove to you that i mean what i said. Every single part of it. Please give me this chance to prove what i have said.

From your babyboy

Things i shouldnt have said

I shouldnt have said you treat me like a dog, because it isnt true. The fact is that i give in to you because i like to, and not because i do not have a choice to. I loved how you treated me all the time, even if it was when you were angry or upset because i know you did so because you loved me. I always felt loved when i was with you, no matter when or where i always felt that way. I loved you with all my heart and i do not want to stop loving you now. I assure you that in this past 11 months, never have i felt unsatisfied with the way you treated me or with the way you talked to me. Because thats just how you are and i know that. I have grown onto you and i cannot imagine myself without you now. I really do not want things to end this way. I really hope that you do too. Please trust me when i say i can become better. Because this is what i desire. You are what i want and i will fight for you no matter what it takes.

From your babyboy

Big Mistake

I know it was a mistake for me to shout and explode to you. And i am sincerely sorry for what i did. I can assure you that this will not happen again because i do not want you to feel like how you felt when you were with your ex. I know he always did those things to you and you have a phobia of it. But i know that it will not happen again. Never will i do such a thing to you again. I promise you that this will never happen again and i want to prove it to you. Let me show you in action that i will never do such a thing again instead of just telling you because i know you will not believe me if i just say i promise not to. Let time show you that i am willing to change and become a better man for you. I know the things i said to you hurt you, but i promise you that i did not mean a single bit of it at all. I shouldnt have said those hurtful words. And for the past 11 months, no matter what we went through i never felt that way before. Honestly i dont know why i said those things, but i really did not feel that way at all. Please let me show you the right way in our relationship, one that is without quarrels or hurt. I can do this i know that because i do not want to lose you. I am willing to be a different man for you, one that takes initiative and one that has his own decisions. Because i know from previously that you do not like it when i just agree with you and let you have what you want. Yes i always gave in to you but now i know that it isnt the right way. You want me to decide things and do things without you asking me to do so, and i promise you that i will be able to do so. I know you might still be angry at me because of what i did, but deep down inside you know i want to make things right. I promise you Angela Tan Yin Xin, that I, Ivan Teo Kui Ming, will strive to be a better boyfriend. I promise that i will never do anything that will harm or hurt you in any way and I promise that I will be that ideal guy that you want. Please give love another chance. Cause i want you to always be my babygirl.

From your babyboy

Happy times

Remember our first month anniversary? We were so happy then and nothing seemed to trouble us at all. Yes things got bad after that but we pulled through and i believe things were even better than before. We quarrelled less and argued less. We were always together and i know we were both happy to have each other's company. We had my birthday celebration and you made me a card. I was so touched by that card and happy with the presents that you gave to me. I still remember them until now. Remember during your birthday, when your friends came to surprise you and we had a small session of mahjong at your place before going to USS the next day? That day was another special memory because it was both our first times going. Remember in the morning when qiaolin peining and regine came to surprise you before we went to USS? That was really nice wasnt it. Things went really well recently too, after our 11 month anniversary. But sunday was a total disaster when it happened. I know i really shouldnt have done all those things, and it made you feel really upset and like the past. I admit it was my mistake and i really shouldnt have done that, knowing how you worked and how to handle you. I really wish i could go back in time and not let that happen. So that i wouldnt be losing you right now and regretting this moment for the rest of my life. I really want to fix things and make things right. Would you let me do so? You are the love of my live and i wouldnt want to lose you now. Things have been so great for us and i cannot imagine myself without you. I really cant.

From your babyboy